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It's pretty amazing how people tend to have lightbulb moments when they least expect it. These lightbulb moments define turning points in many lives, one of them being mine.

There I was happily sitting in a cafe overlooking the SeaCliff Village (a trendy outdoorsy hang out where people spend a considerable amount of time on the weekends grabbing a bite to eat or indulging in an ice-cream cone), when it struck me. My friend sitting opposite stared in wonder and was probably thinking that I had taken an overdose of the cappucino laying in front of me. It felt like my entire world had just about crumbled.

I had grown up thinking that everyone in the world was on the same lines as I, thinking the same and acting in a similar manner. All the jigsaw pieces tended to fit when my life was concerned. I had a great family, was attending a fantastic school, had an amazing relationship with a significant other, and some really interestingly nice friends. Oh yeah, did I mention nice friends? Maybe I should re-phrase that sentence to say: what I thought were some nice friends.

Time and time again I kept on wondering why everytime something good happened in my life it had to fall apart into nothingness, depression, a down-right mess. Then I realized that it wasn't me but everyone around me. Will Smith's wise words flashed in my head like neon lights blinking in a dark alleyway in the midst of a cold night. So vibrant yet so alive.

Plain and simple? Finding genuine people on earth who know the meaning of true friendship and love are hard to find. It's like trying to find a black ant on a black stone on a dark black night ( and no this has nothing to do with math). Dissapointed in the world is what you could call it, because as naiive as I am I thought that the people I thought I knew, were what they claimed to be. Boy was I wrong! I picked up my coffee cup and stared at the person opposite me. It was all a mess, the entire image that I had had of them.

I slowly looked away to the ocean which was splarking turquoise. I wished that I was floating in it, to a place where I knew I could rest my head on a shoulder that was going to be there always. This moment I will never forget for the rest of my life.